I cant stop crying. Im a horrible human. I think.

hold on to the memory, its all you got. I know you'll be there to soak up blood lost.

I'd tap that left, right, and upside down

Im glad Im not like you.

Everything that comes out of my mouth that sounds like mushy lovey dovey word vomit is 100% true.

Im completely unprepared for what lies ahead.

Should I be mad? I figure I have no room to be, but I want to be. I guess I just need to swallow it and move on. So much much much work to do and so little time. Tonight will most definately be an early night for me.

I want someone to fall in love with me. Then I want to break their heart, and feel nothing. Im not sure whyyyyy? but it seems like such a good idea right now. Tonight Im hanging out with Sarah then Jenna will be with me again. I hope I can get her rum for her. I really hope that. This insane shit thats been happening makes me realize a lot. I need to start focusing on some shit and balance out some shit. This is a wake up call for me. I dont want to be like them, not one bit.

I hate my hair cut. Im not a red head. No money for christmas gifts. Worst day ever other than la tolteca.

I like when people over use the term "long time no talk" espically when its been 6 years without even seeing someone... oooooooh brother.

Another weekend and where were you? No phone calls, no attempts. Yes the phone works both ways but my phone has done a lot of work in the past. I've always been more than willing but you have better things to do.




I might have had a pretty bad downfall earlier this week but right now at 10:20 sunday night I can honestly say I don't have to worry about being lonely or scared or sad. Things are being taken care of. Things might not be perfect... but a little inperfection never hurt anyone.

Im happy Im alive today. Its a good thing.

Just get the fucking facts straight.









Today was the day from hell all over nothing. I want to go to New York. I want to so bad.

Only man I need.

Happy birthday <3 You're an old man today.

You arent the person I knew. Where did you go? Are you ever coming back? Probably not. They nver do.

Why am I mad at you? I keep thinking about you, and Im just so mad! I cant really pinpoint anything. Maybe its because you are just a let down sometimes. I feel terrible because Im just angry for no reason but I guess I can't really help it. Im happy that this week is over. I had a lot of fun getting crazy with all my best friends minus a few. And I wouldnt trade it for anything in the world. But like I said Im so happy its over. No more three hours of sleep and a whole house to clean.

And by the way....


Chadd Jenkins...



GO FUCK YOURSELF. I WILL HANG OUT WITH RONNIE AND LISA AS MUCH AS I WANT. IF YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME YOU REALLY WOULDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT. GROW THE FUCK UP. =)

I throw a good party.

IRELAND 2011. ITS HAPPENING.

Last night was a lot of fun. Thank god for my band, and Jenna, and rum, and music, and McDonalds chicken nuggets. I needed a good night. I needed to get out of my rut. Now I wake up hangover-less which is simply amazing. I'm about to just get slightly ready for the day. I'm going to finish some homework, and then make some legit plans for my big bad birthday in three days. How niiiice.